I have no idea why my friends are ignoring me.
Or am I all along had this coming for me?
I wont be surprise if it is that.
But please, give me a chance to revive what was lost and mend what was broken.
I cant help but feel like the world is crashing down on me.
Please, give me another chance.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Soul Searching
This soul searching thing is hard. But I'm still trying.
I guess the world's against me, either that or I'm too selfish. Whatever it is, I'm learning to be patient in taking whatever life is throwing at me. My cries have fallen on deaf ears but, who am I to blame them. They have their lives to live and I have mine to live.
Unfortunately, whenever it comes to friends, I am passionate in keeping them there for me.
Keth told me I make use of them.
But I am not going to make that statement true.
I almost typed the names of certain people that I should not have typed even though I am learning to be more personal on my blog.
But hello, this is still Singapore.
Go figure.
COMMON TEST COMING SOON! I NEED TO FOCUS!!! :)
I guess the world's against me, either that or I'm too selfish. Whatever it is, I'm learning to be patient in taking whatever life is throwing at me. My cries have fallen on deaf ears but, who am I to blame them. They have their lives to live and I have mine to live.
Unfortunately, whenever it comes to friends, I am passionate in keeping them there for me.
Keth told me I make use of them.
But I am not going to make that statement true.
I almost typed the names of certain people that I should not have typed even though I am learning to be more personal on my blog.
But hello, this is still Singapore.
Go figure.
COMMON TEST COMING SOON! I NEED TO FOCUS!!! :)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
The Mistakes I Make
I make mistakes, everyone does.
But just now, I think I am realising the mistake I made specifically just now was an enlightening one.
I am still soul searching.
I take times, thats all.
But just now, I think I am realising the mistake I made specifically just now was an enlightening one.
I am still soul searching.
I take times, thats all.
Night
Last night I met Kethlyn. Actually I met her earlier than that. Met her around 1 cause she asked me to accompany her to some scholarship fair at Grand Copthorne Hotel. Who knew, it was directly beside Zouk! Hahaha, but nah, I am no clubber you know! Especially if the just the night before that I went ehem.......
Anyways, the fair was kinda cool, but it struck me hard.....
Im all along fighting for spaces in the industris with JC students! When I saw the people filling up the scholarships forms are like from HCI, RI, RJC. No PLAY PLAY YOU KNOW!
And like Poly students I see from the list are like so little!
After that, she went to my house to see my little kittens when I am supposed to take a nap. But in the end, we just talked all the way. She was telling me how bad I am as a role model to the little kid at my house. I cant help but to agree.
No matter how sleepy I was feeling at that time, who knew that we were going to spend the night(not that kind ah!) together.
We went to Jurong Spring Mac to study while at the same time we kept talking about this eye candy I had who was sitting directly in front of us! HAHAHA! Cause he kept staring at us and Ket was like, "Eh, did you realise the guy in front kept staring at you?"
I was like, "Nah, cannot be lah. I so ugly what are the odds!".
True enough who knew, that eventually , he became a major distraction during my time there, but I totally believe I was more productive than Ket! She barely typed a paragraph through the whole 2 hours la!
After that Su came over cause Ket told me how important it is to maintain my friendship with him.
Another 3 hours just passed just like that and I can barely remembered what happened till 3am once Su left.
And it was just Me and Ket sitting at "THE"(HEHEHE) place near my house and we talked all the way till 6am. We just kept talking about genuine people and about our pasts and each others lives.
I always like that kind of friendship where you know, we fill up each other conversations and can continue each other's sentences. She is just a magical friend la. Really.
:)
Im studying WSH2 now! AHHH! Adele please make me less stressed with your voice!
Anyways, the fair was kinda cool, but it struck me hard.....
Im all along fighting for spaces in the industris with JC students! When I saw the people filling up the scholarships forms are like from HCI, RI, RJC. No PLAY PLAY YOU KNOW!
And like Poly students I see from the list are like so little!
After that, she went to my house to see my little kittens when I am supposed to take a nap. But in the end, we just talked all the way. She was telling me how bad I am as a role model to the little kid at my house. I cant help but to agree.
No matter how sleepy I was feeling at that time, who knew that we were going to spend the night(not that kind ah!) together.
We went to Jurong Spring Mac to study while at the same time we kept talking about this eye candy I had who was sitting directly in front of us! HAHAHA! Cause he kept staring at us and Ket was like, "Eh, did you realise the guy in front kept staring at you?"
I was like, "Nah, cannot be lah. I so ugly what are the odds!".
True enough who knew, that eventually , he became a major distraction during my time there, but I totally believe I was more productive than Ket! She barely typed a paragraph through the whole 2 hours la!
After that Su came over cause Ket told me how important it is to maintain my friendship with him.
Another 3 hours just passed just like that and I can barely remembered what happened till 3am once Su left.
And it was just Me and Ket sitting at "THE"(HEHEHE) place near my house and we talked all the way till 6am. We just kept talking about genuine people and about our pasts and each others lives.
I always like that kind of friendship where you know, we fill up each other conversations and can continue each other's sentences. She is just a magical friend la. Really.
:)
Im studying WSH2 now! AHHH! Adele please make me less stressed with your voice!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Hiccups!
My life for the past few days have went past miserable to just plain utter depressing.
This week I skipped 2 lessons! I might just get debarred anytime soon and will be held back one more semester. Just yesterday the Deputy Director just talked to me and said how shocked he was to see an email mentioning my poor attendance for my PDD (aka FYP).
OMEEGOSH
If someone like him is already breathing down my neck, I cant afford to slip up at all!
But what is not helping is my insomnia. It might not be the REAL reason why I have sleepless nights, but still, its still a factor!
Ive been telling my friends I took sleeping pills and actually Im not! So I reallly should start taking sleeping pills right. Anyways, Im in class now, everyone all so joyful and full in glee and Im here blogging about how pathetic my life is.
It's true, I have lost my lust to live and really, really need to get it back.
No worries, let's hope time heals all wounds and despairs.
PLEASE! NO HICCUPS DURING MY EMCEE LATER!
WISH ME LUCK!!
This week I skipped 2 lessons! I might just get debarred anytime soon and will be held back one more semester. Just yesterday the Deputy Director just talked to me and said how shocked he was to see an email mentioning my poor attendance for my PDD (aka FYP).
OMEEGOSH
If someone like him is already breathing down my neck, I cant afford to slip up at all!
But what is not helping is my insomnia. It might not be the REAL reason why I have sleepless nights, but still, its still a factor!
Ive been telling my friends I took sleeping pills and actually Im not! So I reallly should start taking sleeping pills right. Anyways, Im in class now, everyone all so joyful and full in glee and Im here blogging about how pathetic my life is.
It's true, I have lost my lust to live and really, really need to get it back.
No worries, let's hope time heals all wounds and despairs.
PLEASE! NO HICCUPS DURING MY EMCEE LATER!
WISH ME LUCK!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
PDD is a Big Bang!
Hi there people! Here I am reporting from the ECA lab and Ngee Ann Poly Blk 34 and gosh am I bored!
Anyways, saw KC before going to school! Quite rare for me to meet him in school even though we meet at all. So ya, I had to blog about it.
Anyways, Im doing my PDD now or should I say, slacking. Supposed to do don't know what research shit but I'd rather watch the Big Bang Theory! HAHA!
Ok la thats all, need to prepare the experiment equipments soon!
And oh ya! Wish my luck later for my emcee rehearsal! 2 straight years as emcee for Singapore Junior Water Prize yo! :)
Anyways, saw KC before going to school! Quite rare for me to meet him in school even though we meet at all. So ya, I had to blog about it.
Anyways, Im doing my PDD now or should I say, slacking. Supposed to do don't know what research shit but I'd rather watch the Big Bang Theory! HAHA!
Ok la thats all, need to prepare the experiment equipments soon!
And oh ya! Wish my luck later for my emcee rehearsal! 2 straight years as emcee for Singapore Junior Water Prize yo! :)
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Im Back
I got motivated by ilovetoscream.blogspot.com to start blogging again.
The last time I blogged was like I think almost 2 years ago? Omg and I can even remember the last post. It was some one damn emo post.
Im like that.
Online, most of tweets, posts on both FB and some on tumblr are all emo. It's because when I'm by myself at home, lots of thoughts run through my mind. Its one of those things that keeps me sane, I think.
Ignore me. Find me irritating. Ask me why.
It's just happen to be like that.
Been told by some friends that I should change. Ah, Ill try. Usually I will say, like FUCK IT LAH, if you can't accept me, GO AWAY! But now, I believe it is okay to change. As long as I dont lose my sanity.
Adele's killing me with her songs!
BYEBYE!
WHY ARE YOU SO SHY,
Aint like you to hold back or
hide from the light.
I hate to turn out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldnt stay away.
The last time I blogged was like I think almost 2 years ago? Omg and I can even remember the last post. It was some one damn emo post.
Im like that.
Online, most of tweets, posts on both FB and some on tumblr are all emo. It's because when I'm by myself at home, lots of thoughts run through my mind. Its one of those things that keeps me sane, I think.
Ignore me. Find me irritating. Ask me why.
It's just happen to be like that.
Been told by some friends that I should change. Ah, Ill try. Usually I will say, like FUCK IT LAH, if you can't accept me, GO AWAY! But now, I believe it is okay to change. As long as I dont lose my sanity.
Adele's killing me with her songs!
BYEBYE!
WHY ARE YOU SO SHY,
Aint like you to hold back or
hide from the light.
I hate to turn out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldnt stay away.
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